God help me

I know right? I know, this is my life, my destiny. But when will this gonna end? I mean I want to be happy, to have someone who will love me back. I am so desperately waiting for that someone since the day I learn how to love. Am I this bad to wait this long? My life is bloody boring and misery. I don’t know wath to do, I’m so sick of this kind of life.

Please God help me, enlighten my mind and keeps me optimistic. I am so weak and I feel like I’m such a loser. Please inspire me to accept things I can not change and be happy and satisfied for what I only have.

Bless my family Lord.

You go to hell, liar!

The guy I’m talking about on my last post is bloody liar. hehe. He is nothing but a piece of crap! you son of bitch stop acting like as if you are good or you do like me ’cause I know you are not! you are damn liar and certified chicks boy! You said you want to meet me, really? well, meet your fucking ass alone! you are not good and I didn’t want to be with you ever! you gotta stop sending me message and find a bitch one, someone’s slut whore face!

lol, sorry for my rant message, but what I’m really trying to say is damn so true. That guy is fucking asshole! You go to hell bastard!

Someone’s flirting! LMFAO!

Hello peeps, it’s me again.

I do really wanna write this blog. Last Saturday, I met someone on facebook. We’re both born and grew up in the same village.  I didn’t know about him since before, since I’m staying in that place. But I knew about his family, his parents and his brothers and sister, he is the only one I didn’t know. In fact I never thought that his mother have him. I didn’t see him in their house or anywhere, perhaps because he living somewhere in the city with his relatives, I think.

He added me on facebook and then last Saturday I surprise when he sent a provate message saying “do you know me?” and I said “NO” ’cause I truly don’t. After that, his lastname made me says “I think I know you… are your parents name blah and blah?” and he said “yes” till we came across to him-asking-my-number, he seems gentleman  for asking me if it is okay. Since we are in the same place and I know his family and his family knows mine as well. 

He is currently working in Canada. He went there three years ago. 

After we went offline my mobile rang four times, I picked it up expecting him of course =D I was right! he called me and we talk but we can’t hear each other cleary perhaps because of the connection or signal problem. In the following day, at the same time, he called me again but my I missed it. I was pretty outside, I don’t know what I’m doing that time but there’s a missed call appeared on my mobile screen. I was kind of upset for forgetting my mobile, I think he was thinking about I don’t wanna talk to him, I don’t know but I have a feeling of thing like that. since then, he didn’t call me again, darn!

I don’t know what’s gonna happen but I’m not trusting him, I don’t even know him that much to trust him easily in just a word. I don’t want to expect much, ’cause later on I’ll be the one who will suffer.

That’s all, i just can’t think if this blog is a bad news or good news. hehehe, I think good since I’m happy no matter what.

bad night!!!!!!!!!!

What a super bad night I have tonight. I tell you why. I have a crush and he was my classmate in review school. Four of us in the review school became close for the last 2 weeks of our exam because everyday we met and we’re having something like a forum or a brainstorming. For instance, I will ask him or her a question as if I am the examiner and then he/she will answer that question and vise versa. I felt nervous during those time because my english is not good and I can’t explain continuously. But as time goes by, we’re all getting comfortable with each other, we became confident enough and my shyness is bit reduced.

We were five in the review school who took the exam and all of us took the listening, reading and writing at the same time during that day in the morning. After that all of us, (we’re 42 who took IELTS ) has a schedule of when to have a speaking test. My classmates’ name were Kim(girl), Jay-r, Joseph, Ian and then me. Kim’s speaking was scheduled on the next morning, which is Sunday because our exam took place on Saturday. So I am the only girl among 4 of us.  Joseph(this is my crush ) waited us even though he was 2 hours done with his speaking, I wonder why, but I’m glad he was there of course, lol. When I reached the room, he told me that he was wondering where are we (JAy-r, Ian and me). I was the last candidate to have a speaking test, and when my name was called he told me “good luck” of course that hit my nerve, LMFAO! Excited as I am, I misconstrue the first question, and so I answered it wrongly. So sure as hell my score would be low. That keeps me awake every night actually, worrying what would be my score is.

After the aspeaking test, I went down stairs because we had the exam in a hotel room and it ends 9pm. I thought I was alone and the last one, when I’m almost in the exit of the hotel, someone’s called my name. I look back over my shoulder and there they are waiting for  me:D Jay-r and Joseph. They asked me to come with them for dinner for the last time that we are together ’cause after the exam we probably can’t each other again. So I said okay to them, we drove to Mc donald:D we stayed there for almost 2 hours, three of us and just chit chatting about anything funny about our lives. At 11pm we decided to go home, before we separated they asked my mobile number:D yay! like thank God he has a number of mine so it means that we can see it each other again or at least have a communicaton since our review was over.

When I came home, I didn’t feel neither tired nor sad because of the exam and answer the first speaking question incorrectly. I’m kind of inspired by my crush:D I waited for his text like a bitch, and then finally someone’s text me, but sad to say it’s not him it’s Jay-r checking out if I got home safely. I waited and I waited for his text since then, but I received nothing. So I just thought of forgetting him since I didn’t know a thing about him, I must not to expect that much.

Last two hours ago, I went online at my facebook account. By the way, we’re already friends in facebook, four of us Kim, Jay-r and Joseph. I am talking with my friend on twitter when suddenly I heard a message sound from my facebook, I checked it out and OMG! it was him. hahaha the bitch was very happy again! we started to talk and make fun to each other and here we go the damn message I’ve ever received, lol, he has a girlfriend already! busted!!!! he didn’t know how much he hurt me and how I wish I could fucking kick that beast butt for being with my supposed to be man??! instead I’m just replying him a fun message, as if we’re having a great chat but deep inside the bitch heart is started to bleed:(

So I started to lose my appetite talking to him:( the bitch is busted! *crying* Anyway, the story has end. hahaha. It’s just a crush anyway, no big deal and besides he’s not that cute and his staying here is less than a year then he will go to London, he’s a computer engineer though:D and smart! I admired him. At least he inspired me till the exam:D right? At this very moment, he is online on the facebook perhaps talking to his bloody girlfriend or whoever. I wish they broke up! LMFAO!

So that’s it. What a stupid life, isn’t it?

Remember me & the runaways (robsten movies)

I was kind of freaked out this afternoon when I saw the trailer of remember me starring Robert Pattinson. I was absolutely surprised to see it on our local tv channel. I don’t like the movie much, although yes I want to see him doing movies outside twilight saga. He is my idol but only next to Kristen Stewart, I love this girl so much more than anybody else in the world of hollywood. She’s not that sexy or super girly type of girl, sort of tomboyish but I like it.

Remember me will be realesed this friday March 12 in the Philippines, we’re lucky to see it the same date in the US. I’m not sure though if I can watch it, hope I can but certainly not on its opening day. I am more excited to see the “the runaways” starring Kristen Stewart. I want to see her like a rock star, playing guitar and singing. The costumes though were so fucking weird, their style was way back in 1970s but it doesn’t matter if you love the actress, right? Kstew is a badass and I’m her fucking fan who will follow her ass all the time, in a good way of course:)

The “remember me” was already confirmed but the “the runaways” isn’t yet. It is hopeless that we will have the runaways, obviously because Kristen is less famous than Robert in the Philippines. That is the first possible reason, they are wondering if people will love the movie and keep on coming back in the cinema. I think hounding their fucking asses doesn’t help at all, so I will just sitting over here while waiting for the news about the runaways are being release. Honestly, I can’t wait for the movie to comes out, I’m kind of freaking bitch when the movie is hitting the theaters. I can’t wait for it’s DVD to comes out before I could watch it, Oh God, I can’t wait that long. I have to have the movie as soon as posible before I’m going to die without any illness.

Kstew looked stunning at oscar 2010

I’ve just seen the Oscar Award night. Kristen Stewart is damn hot! I love her dress and her hair so much, she looks stunning. And so is Taylor Lautner. They present the horror movies? but why too short? I’m not satisfied, I want to see them more at Oscar:(

Yay! Avartar received a lot of awards at the Oscar. I feel sorry though for Anna Kendrick for not wining her nominations. She still rock on the red carpet, I love her dress too and her make up. She looks gorgeous as always.

See Kristen Stewart photos at Oscars 2010. http://mickeehuayang.wordpress.com/2010/03/08/kstew-at-oscars-2010/

I’m excited for Oscar 2010

I can’t wait the Oscar Award Night tomorrow, I’ll go to work in the afternoon since Oscar will be aired live at 10am. I have to watch it live, there is a rewind the day after tomorrow but I can’t wait that long. I can’t even just wait right now till tomorrow how much more the next day? God damn, I can’t stand it! I want to f*cking see the Oscar already.

Kristen is there with Taylor Lautner, I was freaking sad to know that Robert Pattinson will not be there because of f*cking Bel Ami, they won’t let him attend the greatest award night. It’s very frustrating to know, but anyway, Kstew is there so that’s alright. After all, Kstew is the one I love than Rpattz:P I want to see her on the red carpet tomorrow, Kstew will present with Taylor. yay!

I am thinking about the dress she is going to wear tomorrow, hope she will kick those people’s ass in the Oscar. Such a bad timing though, why the hell they have to keep her away from Rob?! People are happy to see them together and keeping Taylor right next to her doesn’t help. Twihards want ROBSTEN all the time.

Do I need to hound their f*cking butts before they could decide to keep this duo together? Oh men! I am a robsten obsessed, I didn’t feel this way before. I am such a freak! haha

Valentine’s day

It’s been awhile since I wrote a blog for my site. As I remember I promised to write something as my daily task, unfortunately I didn’t fulfilled that promised. However, my english is way better now than before, I could feel it lol* even though I failed to do my tasks, I still keep on studying english though in other way, what matter most is that I am improving the way I want to.

So it’s Valentine’s day now, hope everyone’s has a date. Valentine’s day means heart’s day or love’s day, it is general not just for lovers but for everyone. Actually, I’m going to go with my best buddies this evening for a date, since we’re all single ladies we’re planning to have a good time tonight, I wish we’ll enjoy it. This is really not my likes, night out is cool and fun to do with pals but if I’m not in a mood of having fun it’s certainly boring. They keep on bugging to go with them, I think I have to change my moodswings to the jolly one so my valentine would be great, lol.

*hugs & kisses* to all my lovies here

All the single ladies. Now put your hands up! oh oh oh, oh oh oh, oh oh oh….. lol *singing*

Writing task 2

Topic:

“In many countries children are engaged in some kind of paid work.  Some people regard this as completely wrong, while others consider it as valuable work experience, important for learning and taking responsibility.”

Discuss both these views and give your own opinion.

You should spend about 40 minutes on this task.

Some people regard this as completely wrong because children is suppose to go to school and let their parents feed for them. Children under 18 should not allowed to work because it is illegal in some countries. In addition, children tend to forget their studies or not doing their homeworks in just trying to find money. And it will cause them failed in their class, the result is student might hate school and loss their appetite in going school everyday. And we will notice someday that more children are not educated and it will cause seriously problem in our society. On the other hand, some people consider it as valuable experience, it’s true, it is better for our children to know how to find money and feed theirselves so that someday when they are alone they will know how to live. They will become independent and know how to budget and minimize their daily expenses. Most of the children doing like this are most likely to succeed ’cause they are already trained since they were young. My opinion is that, we have to send our children to their school, that’s the first priority and then let them work if you think they can do both things – work and study. And guide them, watch them ’cause they’re still under your responsibility.

Today’s weather

The weather these couple of days are not quite good. It’s cold and it’s raining continuously, though I always said I love cold weather. This time the wind is blowing so hard and it is noisy, especially during night time, I feel like the roof is gonna fly somewhere. I’m afraid we woke up so bright tomorrow knowing the sun light was finally came out, but the fact is our roof was blew by the wind. haha. That’s horrible.

Anyway, yeah, I am wearing my jacket and pyjama now. I am fully covered, I feel like I want to sleep, but I have to stay awake anyway or else I can’t study my lessons, I’ve wasted my time so much so I think it’s enough. Time to discipline myself before anything went too late. I still have a Month of review for IELTS.